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Laguna: My Forever Angel

onJune 30, 2016February 11, 2018inLife Learnings

Laguna was the sweetest cat I've ever met, and the beautiful memories of her will be forever cherished in my heart. …

Embodying Love & Joy on Earth

I'm Hailey, a global citizen sharing my whole food plant-based lifestyle and journey of healing. Thank you for your presence. ♥

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I used to think of my inability to settle in one p

I used to think of my inability to settle in one place as some sort of deficiency I needed to cure. But more and more, I realize I belong to this whole planet Earth. Maybe my “deficiency” can be a reminder for others to re-evaluate the need to cling to imaginary lines and divisions on the world map. Maybe we all belong to the stars, the forests and the oceans. Maybe it’s okay to be wherever our hearts call us to be, until we’re called to the next place. And right now, I’m exactly where I need to be. I’m home. 🤍

#台東 #台灣 #森林

Peace seems so far away. Except that it can be pra

Peace seems so far away. Except that it can be practiced every second. Every single time we choose love over hatred, understanding over prejudice, awareness over unconsciousness…we are choosing peace. The day will come when we finally wake up and remember our interconnectedness. The Universe sent me back here for a reason. All this chaos is challenging us to be more grounded than ever. I’m inviting you to heal your past traumas and allow yourself to embrace your light. This light is the only thing that can guide us out of the darkness…and we need it like never before.

和平看似如此遙遠，但卻是每一秒都可以實踐的事。每一次當我們在恨的面前選擇愛，在偏見的面前選擇理解，在無明的面前選擇覺知，我們都是在為和平做出選擇。總有一天我們將醒來，總有一天我們將憶起萬物間的互相連結。宇宙在這個時候派我回來不是沒有原因的——這一切的混亂都是在挑戰我們更加穩住自己，而我邀請大家有意識的去療癒自己過去的創傷，允許自己擁抱自己的內在之光。這道光是唯一能帶我們走出黑暗的希望，而我們從未像現在一樣需要它。

#taiwan #lotus #summer

For many years, the distance between 35°C and 64°F was 12 hours. My sister would always walk me to the bus stop where I took a direct bus to TPE. Then the next 11 hours, I tried to watch movies and sleep. I always had headaches and got extremely impatient on those long flights...especially if I couldn’t get an aisle seat.

The 12th hour was the time for action. And by the time we landed at SFO, I had a different SIM card on my phone, a wallet full of a different currency, a different passport, and a filled out customs form in hand. After being greeted by my brother or my cousin, I’d reunite with my car and carry on with my day as if I had never left.

But now it doesn’t take a 12-hour flight to switch between worlds anymore. Whether I open LINE, WeChat, IG, WhatsApp, FaceTime, Slack or Signal determines which universe I’m entering, who I’m interacting with, and which part of myself I’m accessing. And if I put down my phone and step out of the door…another whole new physical reality awaits me. It reminds me of a time when every morning after waking up I’d need a few seconds to remember where I was physically.

This has been extremely draining, leaving me fragmented and exhausted. My solution so far is to deepen my grounding in the stillness within me whenever I can, and seek support from nature. When I’m surrounded by trees and butterflies, I know everything is going to be okay…🦋⭐️🌲

#multiverse #nature #presence #meditation

Closures and proper goodbyes can be such a luxury.

Closures and proper goodbyes can be such a luxury. Like that nice boy who always brought me breakfast back in high school. That morning when he didn’t show up in class and we tried to rush to the hospital, but ended up having to go straight to the morgue instead. Or my little princess Laguna, whom despite my best effort to come back to from 7,000 miles away, still didn’t get to see for the last time. Or when I told my beloved friends “see you in two months,” unaware that something would soon be lost forever.

The older I get, the more I realize - that’s life. Real, raw, and unpredictable. Full of ambiguous losses. Full of “what ifs.” How can I remind myself that it’s also full of beautiful connections, love, and light? How can I hold all these complexities and retain my innocence? How can I grow wiser and accept that there will be moments when cynicism and despair take over? I can only trust that life never gives me anything I’m not ready for. However challenging, I am ready.

#taipei #taiwan #jiufen

Sometimes, for no apparent reason, you just feel a

Sometimes, for no apparent reason, you just feel a stream of love and joy flowing out of you. An immense feeling of gratitude even amid all the chaos and pain. Even when faced with such uncertainty, you know everything will be okay.

And this is coming from someone who narrowly escaped a two-month rigid lockdown but left 99% of her possessions and her beloved cats, trapped in major limbo land without a clear next step. Someone who lived a community life with her soul family for more than two years, but all of a sudden found herself alone without any of them by her side physically. The plan to move to nature together abruptly suspended, with added complexity of closed borders.

It reminds me of something a mentor once told me - life is like surfing. No one goes surfing just to get to the shore smoothly. It’s the ups and downs they enjoy. I don’t want a smooth and uneventful life. Instead, I want the resilience I build from going through those challenges, and maybe I can provide support for others along the ride, too. So much gratitude and awe. 🤍

Photo by @koulan

#taipei #yangmingshan

《家》家是我們從小長大的房子嗎？

《家》

家是我們從小長大的房子嗎？是那座房子所在的城市、國家嗎？是我們感到最自在、最能做自己的地方嗎？是心裡深深牽掛、在意的人嗎？

自從七歲從一個我很喜愛的地方搬走後，我好像就再也不把家看作是一個具體的地點了。我的家人不但來自四方，從小我也被灌輸了我「一人隸屬於多處」的概念，也真的去浪跡天涯了。有六個國家、十幾個城市曾經被我稱作「家」，再加上其他短居的地方⋯⋯每去到一個地方，就會面臨新的挑戰、遇到新的人，需要不斷調適，也為自己的人生帶來了很多反思的機會。

這樣的生活方式，通常一般人只看到表面的歡樂，卻沒看到背後的代價。你願意生活中沒有什麼穩定性，連加入要綁約的健身房都需要深思熟慮嗎？你願意一直不斷跟自己愛的人說再見嗎？你願意只擁有少少幾個行李箱的所有物，無論看到多喜歡的物品，都要提醒自己帶不走、不能買嗎？你願意學習新的語言嗎？你願意身在異鄉，需要時常開口請人幫助嗎？你願意忍受某些大環境下的不公不義，藉此體驗那個地方的人民的痛，並且盡一己之力幫助他們嗎？你願意不斷跳出舒適圈、不斷適應新事物嗎？你願意放下社會一直以來教導我們要付出一切代價取得的「安全感」和「成就」嗎？

其實說穿了，我一直覺得國界是幾條想像出來的線，是人類發明來互相殘殺、反自然的工具。有多少人類和非人類的生命，就在這樣的互相競爭中犧牲了？但我們一出生就是在這樣一個體系內，似乎忘記了我們都只是地球公民、銀河系公民，宇宙中的一顆小星塵。

直到我們想起這一切都只是一個被設計出來的遊戲，目的是為了要讓我們迷失自己、忘記自己的光，繼續為一個黑暗的體系提供源源不絕的恐懼、暴力能量，好繼續破壞一切生命的美好；直到我們清醒地說「不」，轉而把我們寶貴的生命能量用來療癒自己過去的創傷、療癒世界，把屬於自己的身心靈健康主權拿回來；直到我們願意為了成長而犧牲舒適、做出艱難的決定；直到我們願意誠實檢視自己，勇敢打開內心、表達脆弱、邀請能和我們共同成長的兄弟姊妹們一起踏上這條路⋯⋯對我來說，這一切，就是我們最終「回家」的路。

現在的我，就像是一個小小的波浪。每當我想起我只是浩瀚的海洋表達自己的一個方式，每當我想起屬於「我」的一切精彩、一切掙扎，最終都將回歸到這片汪洋⋯⋯對我來說，這就是「家」。

#home #taipei

Does it have to be this way? Maybe. Very few have

Does it have to be this way? Maybe. Very few have been awake from the start. Some woke up a long time ago. But most remain asleep. Perhaps it has to get so bad that every single one has to be shaken awake and make a choice. And sometimes it feels so unfair. But maybe we chose this after all. To plunge into complete darkness until we can remember our light. To see everything we’re not until we can remember our truth. To walk through a storm unscathed because we realize nothing can harm us without our permission. And we can’t be “saved” by anyone. This inner light is the only thing that will guide us out of the darkness.

難道一定必須這樣嗎？或許吧。極少數人從頭到尾都是清醒的。有些人很久以前就醒來。但絕大多數人都還處在沈睡狀態。或許這一切需要演變到如此糟糕的地步，將每一個人都從沈睡中搖醒，做出選擇。有時候這一切看似很不公平，但或許這也是我們自己選擇的。掉入深深的黑暗，直到想起自己的光。目睹我們所不是的一切，好想起我們的真實。處在暴風雨中卻全身而退，因為我們想起——沒有我們的許可，誰也傷害不了我們。這一次，我們不會被誰「拯救」。這一次，唯一能夠引領我們走出黑暗的，就是我們每個人自己心中的光。

p.s. hair by @lieblingsalon

#taiwan #summer

It’s not easy to stay grounded and balanced in t

It’s not easy to stay grounded and balanced in times of uncertainty and chaos. And yet there are some simple things we can do daily that may be helpful. Here are some of my personal practices:

💚 Eat healthy (whole food plant-based)
💚 Do yoga
💚 Meditate
💚 Spend time in nature (even a park is fine)
💚 Maintain a journal
💚 Stay connected with loved ones

The goal isn’t to be perfect - every little step counts. Something I’m terrible at is going to sleep & waking up early…which I’ll work on next! 😆

(Wearing my babe @sophieyyh ‘s dress ❤️)

🔹🔹🔹

當外在的一切都處在不確定和混亂的狀態下，我們能做些什麼來保持內心的穩定和平衡？這些是我自己每天會做的：

💚 健康全食物蔬食
💚 瑜伽
💚 冥想
💚 接觸大自然（公園也行）
💚 寫日記
💚 跟我所愛的人們交流

做這些的目的不是為了要完美，任何一小步都好。接下來我自己要把「早睡早起」加入到目標當中（一直覺得這件事很難）！😆

#taiwan #lilyfield #summer #home

Kindness will always win, even when it feels like

Kindness will always win, even when it feels like losing. ⭐️

A study that involved more than 590,000 participan

A study that involved more than 590,000 participants concluded that "[a] diet characterised by healthy plant-based foods was associated with lower risk and severity of COVID-19" (https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34489306/). COVID isn’t the only health hazard we need to be concerned about. Personally, I’d focus more on taking care of one’s health in general by eating a whole food plant-based (not just vegan) diet, exercising, meditating, doing things that bring us joy, and fostering meaningful connections with ourselves, others, and nature.

一份針對超過590,000位參與者的研究指出，「以健康植物為主的飲食，與罹患新冠肺炎和病症加劇的風險降低有關」（https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34489306/）。我們需要關注的健康危機不是只有新冠。個人來說，我會想把更多精力放在提升整體健康，方法是採取「全食物蔬食」（不只是純素食）、運動、冥想、做會給自己帶來喜悅的事，並且培養和自己、他人及大自然之間有意義的連結。

#yunnan #throwback

Home 💚 The other day I lay on the grass in Da’an Park, stared at the blue sky and the passing clouds, and sang one of my favorite songs “Heart of Fire.” I haven’t seen anyone other than my family because nowadays I can’t talk for more than five minutes without thinking about my friends back in Shanghai and crying. How do we cultivate joy and peace in times of turbulence and chaos? That’s been my practice lately.

回家💚幾天前躺在大安森林公園的草地上看雲看藍天，然後把一首很喜歡的歌「Heart of Fire」唱了幾遍。回台灣一個多月除了家人誰也沒見，因為我處於一種說話不到三句就會想到我在上海的朋友們，然後開始哭的狀態。該如何在亂世中保持內心的喜悅和平靜？這是我最近在練習的課題。

#台北 #台灣 #peace #mindfulness

In the end All that isn’t aligned with nature n

In the end
All that isn’t aligned with nature needs to go
All that goes against the flow of life needs to be exposed and cleansed
All the lies will crumble

It may seem scary and shaky
Sometimes hopeless
But violence can not win

We are the untouchable formlessness
That sees through all the form identities
That remains grounded amidst chaos and suffering
Don’t resonate with the frequency of fear
Because that’s a trap
Don’t let them take your power away from you
Because that’s the only way they can thrive
Don’t ever forget what you’re capable of
Because you can be a magnet for miracles ✨

Sensitivity Is A Gift Sensitivity is a gift becau

Sensitivity Is A Gift

Sensitivity is a gift because it allows us to feel deeply and live authentically. But the society tells us otherwise, because a distorted civilization relies on people’s numbness to thrive.

If we embraced our sensitivity, we wouldn’t be able to harm ourselves with alcohol, cigarettes, or junk food. We wouldn’t be able to eat animals because we’d feel their pain. We wouldn’t be able to shop mindlessly because our hearts would ache for the damage done to our planet. We wouldn’t be able to play violent video games because we’d long for peace. We wouldn’t be so easily manipulated because we’d be connected to the deeper inner knowing of why we’re here on Earth.

The world wants to strip our sensitivity away and make everyone guarded. I’d say let’s do the opposite. Let’s open our hearts to feel. Let’s say what we truly mean, with compassion. Let’s accept our full range of emotions, whether it’s sadness, happiness, or anger. Let’s treat each other with empathy because we are all different manifestations of the same source. Let’s commit to our own healing so we can help others heal, too. ❤️

“Animals are here with us, not for us.” I used

“Animals are here with us, not for us.” I used to not understand why such a simple truth could sound like blasphemy to many. “What’s wrong with these people?” I thought. It wasn’t until a few years ago when I finally realized that the majority of human beings have been so wounded ourselves. We literally carry our trauma within us - ancestral, collective, and individual trauma that requires consciousness to heal and transform.

To think something’s “wrong” with anyone just because they don’t behave in ways I believe are “right” is to deny the interconnectedness of all beings. How can we love freely when we’ve never experienced unconditional love? How can we refrain from harming others when we’ve been hurt ourselves? How can we serve the healing of the planet when we aren’t even aware of our own pain?

The time has come for us to choose conscious healing and acting from a place of acceptance and compassion, instead of resistance and blame. We simply can’t heal the planet without healing ourselves.

(Photo taken at @green_common Taikoo Li Qiantan flagship store opening)

It’s okay to grieve. It’s okay to feel exhaust

It’s okay to grieve. It’s okay to feel exhausted. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed. It’s okay to feel stuck in confusion. It’s okay to lie on the floor and cry for hours. We’ve been through a lot, collectively and individually. We’ve felt the sadness of not being able to see our families. We’ve lost loved ones. We’ve witnessed so much suffering. Some may feel it more deeply than others, but we are all affected one way or another because we are all interconnected.

Give yourself permission to accept whatever experience you’re having now. You don’t have to have all the answers all the time. You don’t have to be productive all the time. You don’t have to be or feel any particular way in any given moment. Whatever you’re experiencing right now is valid. If you surrender to the present moment fully, things may start to shift. Until then, it’s okay to just be where you are. You are always loved and held.
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你可以悲傷。你可以疲憊不堪。你可以不知所措。你可以深陷於困惑之中。你可以在地上躺著哭著好幾小時。無論是在集體還是個人層面上，我們過去這段時間都經歷了太多。有人因無法和家人重逢而難過，有人失去了至親，所有人都目睹了太多的痛苦。或許有些人比其他人感受來得深，但因為我們都是互相連結的，所以無論如何，每一個人都在不同程度上受到了影響。

允許自己接受當下所有的體驗。你不用總是知道答案。你不用總是高效率。你不用成為任何一種特定的樣子，或有任何一種特定的感受。無論你此刻正在經歷什麼，都是正當的。如果你能全然臣服於當下的時刻，或許一切會開始轉變。但直到轉變發生前，待在你現在的地方，是完全沒有問題的。你永遠都是被深深愛著、守護著的。

“Love yourself enough to not let anything outsid

“Love yourself enough to not let anything outside of you pull you off your center by simply choosing to accept each moment.”

Our love & intuition is our protection. We no long

Our love & intuition is our protection. We no longer need outdated, fear-based mechanisms to embrace the ultimate gift of life. ✨
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Photo by: Yiming
#yunnan #meilisnowmountain #sky

Happy 2-Year Breakupversary! Two years ago today,

Happy 2-Year Breakupversary! Two years ago today, everything I thought I knew was stripped away. To embrace the transformation of a 5-year romantic relationship into friendship wasn’t easy. The first two months were endless tears, anguish, lying on the floor lifelessly, not eating and losing a lot of weight, and doubting why I even existed.

Then I went back to Europe and the US to embark on my own adventure. I needed to remember how to be independent and whole again, and seek comfort in the arms of people who could hold me in my most vulnerable moments.

In December 2019, I was so ready to come back to Shanghai, take my cats and leave for good. But my cats’ paperwork would take so much longer than I imagined. Then…COVID hit.

Whatever happened next is history now. For the first time, I started to explore Shanghai for real. I found a community of friends I now call family. I fell in love with another wonderful person and realized I could open my heart again (tho we separated after 7 months).

I was so wounded and broken when I first met @narayansilva in Beijing in 2014. I didn’t know I had feelings. I lost hope in humanity. He picked up pieces of me, provided me with a safe environment to start my healing process, and modeled how to be a loving presence in other people’s lives. After 5 years of nurturing and growth, I was ready for my next stage of evolution - to practice unconditional love, to consciously heal past traumas, and to light others’ light with my own.

What I thought was the worst day of my life - July 6, 2019 - turned out to be one of the most amazing gifts I could have ever received. One that required me to take a leap of faith. To surrender. To venture into the darkest corners of my heart so I could be reborn in this life. I am forever grateful for walking this journey with you, and now with the addition of our loving community. ❤️

If you care about creating a more conscious and co

If you care about creating a more conscious and connected world like I do, Nonviolent Communication may be an important tool for us all.

My observation over the years is that many well-intentioned initiatives fail not because we don’t have the technology (or even the money), but because humans don’t know how to collaborate with each other on a conscious level. Most of us have never been taught that, or even taught the opposite way. That’s why I think it’s essential for us to integrate our inner work and outer work, so we can truly be effective change agents for Earth.

Book: “Nonviolent Communication: A Language of Life: Life-Changing Tools for Healthy Relationships”

Website: https://www.cnvc.org/

如果你也和我一樣想創造一個更有覺知的世界，那麼「非暴力溝通」或許是個非常重要的工具。

多年來，我的觀察是許多初衷很好的項目之所以會失敗，並不是因為技術不夠或沒有資金，而是因為人與人之間不知道該如何更有意識地去合作。我們多數人都沒有被教導過怎麼去做這件事，甚至是被以恰巧相反的方式去教導的。

正因如此，我認為把內心功課和外在功課整合在一起，才能更有效地去為地球成為變革者。

書籍：《非暴力溝通：愛的語言》

Things I’ve been telling myself... 1. Stay away

Things I’ve been telling myself...

1. Stay away from people or circumstances that don’t nourish you. You don’t have to be nice all the time.

2. Be on time. And request that others respect your time as well.

3. Don’t force it. If something doesn’t flow, perhaps it’s not meant to be.

4. Always check in with yourself. “Do I feel at ease now? Am I trying to run away from any feelings or thoughts?”

5. You don’t “make” change happen. The flow of life is bigger than you. Change is bound to happen, and your job is to create conditions that support it.

6. You can only receive the gifts from life when there’s space in you. Being in a liminal space is okay.

7. You don’t need to do the most “impactful” thing. Instead, do what you’re here on Earth to do, big or small. The impact of any action is not so linear or overly simplistic.

8. Stay committed to your inner work. No one else can do this for you.

9. You know what’s right for you, and what you need to do at any given moment. You just need to stop pretending that you don’t.

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I used to think of my inability to settle in one p

I used to think of my inability to settle in one place as some sort of deficiency I needed to cure. But more and more, I realize I belong to this whole planet Earth. Maybe my “deficiency” can be a reminder for others to re-evaluate the need to cling to imaginary lines and divisions on the world map. Maybe we all belong to the stars, the forests and the oceans. Maybe it’s okay to be wherever our hearts call us to be, until we’re called to the next place. And right now, I’m exactly where I need to be. I’m home. 🤍

#台東 #台灣 #森林

Peace seems so far away. Except that it can be pra

Peace seems so far away. Except that it can be practiced every second. Every single time we choose love over hatred, understanding over prejudice, awareness over unconsciousness…we are choosing peace. The day will come when we finally wake up and remember our interconnectedness. The Universe sent me back here for a reason. All this chaos is challenging us to be more grounded than ever. I’m inviting you to heal your past traumas and allow yourself to embrace your light. This light is the only thing that can guide us out of the darkness…and we need it like never before.

和平看似如此遙遠，但卻是每一秒都可以實踐的事。每一次當我們在恨的面前選擇愛，在偏見的面前選擇理解，在無明的面前選擇覺知，我們都是在為和平做出選擇。總有一天我們將醒來，總有一天我們將憶起萬物間的互相連結。宇宙在這個時候派我回來不是沒有原因的——這一切的混亂都是在挑戰我們更加穩住自己，而我邀請大家有意識的去療癒自己過去的創傷，允許自己擁抱自己的內在之光。這道光是唯一能帶我們走出黑暗的希望，而我們從未像現在一樣需要它。

#taiwan #lotus #summer

For many years, the distance between 35°C and 64°F was 12 hours. My sister would always walk me to the bus stop where I took a direct bus to TPE. Then the next 11 hours, I tried to watch movies and sleep. I always had headaches and got extremely impatient on those long flights...especially if I couldn’t get an aisle seat.

The 12th hour was the time for action. And by the time we landed at SFO, I had a different SIM card on my phone, a wallet full of a different currency, a different passport, and a filled out customs form in hand. After being greeted by my brother or my cousin, I’d reunite with my car and carry on with my day as if I had never left.

But now it doesn’t take a 12-hour flight to switch between worlds anymore. Whether I open LINE, WeChat, IG, WhatsApp, FaceTime, Slack or Signal determines which universe I’m entering, who I’m interacting with, and which part of myself I’m accessing. And if I put down my phone and step out of the door…another whole new physical reality awaits me. It reminds me of a time when every morning after waking up I’d need a few seconds to remember where I was physically.

This has been extremely draining, leaving me fragmented and exhausted. My solution so far is to deepen my grounding in the stillness within me whenever I can, and seek support from nature. When I’m surrounded by trees and butterflies, I know everything is going to be okay…🦋⭐️🌲

#multiverse #nature #presence #meditation

Closures and proper goodbyes can be such a luxury.

Closures and proper goodbyes can be such a luxury. Like that nice boy who always brought me breakfast back in high school. That morning when he didn’t show up in class and we tried to rush to the hospital, but ended up having to go straight to the morgue instead. Or my little princess Laguna, whom despite my best effort to come back to from 7,000 miles away, still didn’t get to see for the last time. Or when I told my beloved friends “see you in two months,” unaware that something would soon be lost forever.

The older I get, the more I realize - that’s life. Real, raw, and unpredictable. Full of ambiguous losses. Full of “what ifs.” How can I remind myself that it’s also full of beautiful connections, love, and light? How can I hold all these complexities and retain my innocence? How can I grow wiser and accept that there will be moments when cynicism and despair take over? I can only trust that life never gives me anything I’m not ready for. However challenging, I am ready.

#taipei #taiwan #jiufen

Sometimes, for no apparent reason, you just feel a

Sometimes, for no apparent reason, you just feel a stream of love and joy flowing out of you. An immense feeling of gratitude even amid all the chaos and pain. Even when faced with such uncertainty, you know everything will be okay.

And this is coming from someone who narrowly escaped a two-month rigid lockdown but left 99% of her possessions and her beloved cats, trapped in major limbo land without a clear next step. Someone who lived a community life with her soul family for more than two years, but all of a sudden found herself alone without any of them by her side physically. The plan to move to nature together abruptly suspended, with added complexity of closed borders.

It reminds me of something a mentor once told me - life is like surfing. No one goes surfing just to get to the shore smoothly. It’s the ups and downs they enjoy. I don’t want a smooth and uneventful life. Instead, I want the resilience I build from going through those challenges, and maybe I can provide support for others along the ride, too. So much gratitude and awe. 🤍

Photo by @koulan

#taipei #yangmingshan

《家》家是我們從小長大的房子嗎？

《家》

家是我們從小長大的房子嗎？是那座房子所在的城市、國家嗎？是我們感到最自在、最能做自己的地方嗎？是心裡深深牽掛、在意的人嗎？

自從七歲從一個我很喜愛的地方搬走後，我好像就再也不把家看作是一個具體的地點了。我的家人不但來自四方，從小我也被灌輸了我「一人隸屬於多處」的概念，也真的去浪跡天涯了。有六個國家、十幾個城市曾經被我稱作「家」，再加上其他短居的地方⋯⋯每去到一個地方，就會面臨新的挑戰、遇到新的人，需要不斷調適，也為自己的人生帶來了很多反思的機會。

這樣的生活方式，通常一般人只看到表面的歡樂，卻沒看到背後的代價。你願意生活中沒有什麼穩定性，連加入要綁約的健身房都需要深思熟慮嗎？你願意一直不斷跟自己愛的人說再見嗎？你願意只擁有少少幾個行李箱的所有物，無論看到多喜歡的物品，都要提醒自己帶不走、不能買嗎？你願意學習新的語言嗎？你願意身在異鄉，需要時常開口請人幫助嗎？你願意忍受某些大環境下的不公不義，藉此體驗那個地方的人民的痛，並且盡一己之力幫助他們嗎？你願意不斷跳出舒適圈、不斷適應新事物嗎？你願意放下社會一直以來教導我們要付出一切代價取得的「安全感」和「成就」嗎？

其實說穿了，我一直覺得國界是幾條想像出來的線，是人類發明來互相殘殺、反自然的工具。有多少人類和非人類的生命，就在這樣的互相競爭中犧牲了？但我們一出生就是在這樣一個體系內，似乎忘記了我們都只是地球公民、銀河系公民，宇宙中的一顆小星塵。

直到我們想起這一切都只是一個被設計出來的遊戲，目的是為了要讓我們迷失自己、忘記自己的光，繼續為一個黑暗的體系提供源源不絕的恐懼、暴力能量，好繼續破壞一切生命的美好；直到我們清醒地說「不」，轉而把我們寶貴的生命能量用來療癒自己過去的創傷、療癒世界，把屬於自己的身心靈健康主權拿回來；直到我們願意為了成長而犧牲舒適、做出艱難的決定；直到我們願意誠實檢視自己，勇敢打開內心、表達脆弱、邀請能和我們共同成長的兄弟姊妹們一起踏上這條路⋯⋯對我來說，這一切，就是我們最終「回家」的路。

現在的我，就像是一個小小的波浪。每當我想起我只是浩瀚的海洋表達自己的一個方式，每當我想起屬於「我」的一切精彩、一切掙扎，最終都將回歸到這片汪洋⋯⋯對我來說，這就是「家」。

#home #taipei

Does it have to be this way? Maybe. Very few have

Does it have to be this way? Maybe. Very few have been awake from the start. Some woke up a long time ago. But most remain asleep. Perhaps it has to get so bad that every single one has to be shaken awake and make a choice. And sometimes it feels so unfair. But maybe we chose this after all. To plunge into complete darkness until we can remember our light. To see everything we’re not until we can remember our truth. To walk through a storm unscathed because we realize nothing can harm us without our permission. And we can’t be “saved” by anyone. This inner light is the only thing that will guide us out of the darkness.

難道一定必須這樣嗎？或許吧。極少數人從頭到尾都是清醒的。有些人很久以前就醒來。但絕大多數人都還處在沈睡狀態。或許這一切需要演變到如此糟糕的地步，將每一個人都從沈睡中搖醒，做出選擇。有時候這一切看似很不公平，但或許這也是我們自己選擇的。掉入深深的黑暗，直到想起自己的光。目睹我們所不是的一切，好想起我們的真實。處在暴風雨中卻全身而退，因為我們想起——沒有我們的許可，誰也傷害不了我們。這一次，我們不會被誰「拯救」。這一次，唯一能夠引領我們走出黑暗的，就是我們每個人自己心中的光。

p.s. hair by @lieblingsalon

#taiwan #summer

It’s not easy to stay grounded and balanced in t

It’s not easy to stay grounded and balanced in times of uncertainty and chaos. And yet there are some simple things we can do daily that may be helpful. Here are some of my personal practices:

💚 Eat healthy (whole food plant-based)
💚 Do yoga
💚 Meditate
💚 Spend time in nature (even a park is fine)
💚 Maintain a journal
💚 Stay connected with loved ones

The goal isn’t to be perfect - every little step counts. Something I’m terrible at is going to sleep & waking up early…which I’ll work on next! 😆

(Wearing my babe @sophieyyh ‘s dress ❤️)

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當外在的一切都處在不確定和混亂的狀態下，我們能做些什麼來保持內心的穩定和平衡？這些是我自己每天會做的：

💚 健康全食物蔬食
💚 瑜伽
💚 冥想
💚 接觸大自然（公園也行）
💚 寫日記
💚 跟我所愛的人們交流

做這些的目的不是為了要完美，任何一小步都好。接下來我自己要把「早睡早起」加入到目標當中（一直覺得這件事很難）！😆

#taiwan #lilyfield #summer #home

Kindness will always win, even when it feels like

Kindness will always win, even when it feels like losing. ⭐️

A study that involved more than 590,000 participan

A study that involved more than 590,000 participants concluded that "[a] diet characterised by healthy plant-based foods was associated with lower risk and severity of COVID-19" (https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34489306/). COVID isn’t the only health hazard we need to be concerned about. Personally, I’d focus more on taking care of one’s health in general by eating a whole food plant-based (not just vegan) diet, exercising, meditating, doing things that bring us joy, and fostering meaningful connections with ourselves, others, and nature.

一份針對超過590,000位參與者的研究指出，「以健康植物為主的飲食，與罹患新冠肺炎和病症加劇的風險降低有關」（https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34489306/）。我們需要關注的健康危機不是只有新冠。個人來說，我會想把更多精力放在提升整體健康，方法是採取「全食物蔬食」（不只是純素食）、運動、冥想、做會給自己帶來喜悅的事，並且培養和自己、他人及大自然之間有意義的連結。

#yunnan #throwback

Home 💚 The other day I lay on the grass in Da’an Park, stared at the blue sky and the passing clouds, and sang one of my favorite songs “Heart of Fire.” I haven’t seen anyone other than my family because nowadays I can’t talk for more than five minutes without thinking about my friends back in Shanghai and crying. How do we cultivate joy and peace in times of turbulence and chaos? That’s been my practice lately.

回家💚幾天前躺在大安森林公園的草地上看雲看藍天，然後把一首很喜歡的歌「Heart of Fire」唱了幾遍。回台灣一個多月除了家人誰也沒見，因為我處於一種說話不到三句就會想到我在上海的朋友們，然後開始哭的狀態。該如何在亂世中保持內心的喜悅和平靜？這是我最近在練習的課題。

#台北 #台灣 #peace #mindfulness

In the end All that isn’t aligned with nature n

In the end
All that isn’t aligned with nature needs to go
All that goes against the flow of life needs to be exposed and cleansed
All the lies will crumble

It may seem scary and shaky
Sometimes hopeless
But violence can not win

We are the untouchable formlessness
That sees through all the form identities
That remains grounded amidst chaos and suffering
Don’t resonate with the frequency of fear
Because that’s a trap
Don’t let them take your power away from you
Because that’s the only way they can thrive
Don’t ever forget what you’re capable of
Because you can be a magnet for miracles ✨

Sensitivity Is A Gift Sensitivity is a gift becau

Sensitivity Is A Gift

Sensitivity is a gift because it allows us to feel deeply and live authentically. But the society tells us otherwise, because a distorted civilization relies on people’s numbness to thrive.

If we embraced our sensitivity, we wouldn’t be able to harm ourselves with alcohol, cigarettes, or junk food. We wouldn’t be able to eat animals because we’d feel their pain. We wouldn’t be able to shop mindlessly because our hearts would ache for the damage done to our planet. We wouldn’t be able to play violent video games because we’d long for peace. We wouldn’t be so easily manipulated because we’d be connected to the deeper inner knowing of why we’re here on Earth.

The world wants to strip our sensitivity away and make everyone guarded. I’d say let’s do the opposite. Let’s open our hearts to feel. Let’s say what we truly mean, with compassion. Let’s accept our full range of emotions, whether it’s sadness, happiness, or anger. Let’s treat each other with empathy because we are all different manifestations of the same source. Let’s commit to our own healing so we can help others heal, too. ❤️

“Animals are here with us, not for us.” I used

“Animals are here with us, not for us.” I used to not understand why such a simple truth could sound like blasphemy to many. “What’s wrong with these people?” I thought. It wasn’t until a few years ago when I finally realized that the majority of human beings have been so wounded ourselves. We literally carry our trauma within us - ancestral, collective, and individual trauma that requires consciousness to heal and transform.

To think something’s “wrong” with anyone just because they don’t behave in ways I believe are “right” is to deny the interconnectedness of all beings. How can we love freely when we’ve never experienced unconditional love? How can we refrain from harming others when we’ve been hurt ourselves? How can we serve the healing of the planet when we aren’t even aware of our own pain?

The time has come for us to choose conscious healing and acting from a place of acceptance and compassion, instead of resistance and blame. We simply can’t heal the planet without healing ourselves.

(Photo taken at @green_common Taikoo Li Qiantan flagship store opening)

It’s okay to grieve. It’s okay to feel exhaust

It’s okay to grieve. It’s okay to feel exhausted. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed. It’s okay to feel stuck in confusion. It’s okay to lie on the floor and cry for hours. We’ve been through a lot, collectively and individually. We’ve felt the sadness of not being able to see our families. We’ve lost loved ones. We’ve witnessed so much suffering. Some may feel it more deeply than others, but we are all affected one way or another because we are all interconnected.

Give yourself permission to accept whatever experience you’re having now. You don’t have to have all the answers all the time. You don’t have to be productive all the time. You don’t have to be or feel any particular way in any given moment. Whatever you’re experiencing right now is valid. If you surrender to the present moment fully, things may start to shift. Until then, it’s okay to just be where you are. You are always loved and held.
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你可以悲傷。你可以疲憊不堪。你可以不知所措。你可以深陷於困惑之中。你可以在地上躺著哭著好幾小時。無論是在集體還是個人層面上，我們過去這段時間都經歷了太多。有人因無法和家人重逢而難過，有人失去了至親，所有人都目睹了太多的痛苦。或許有些人比其他人感受來得深，但因為我們都是互相連結的，所以無論如何，每一個人都在不同程度上受到了影響。

允許自己接受當下所有的體驗。你不用總是知道答案。你不用總是高效率。你不用成為任何一種特定的樣子，或有任何一種特定的感受。無論你此刻正在經歷什麼，都是正當的。如果你能全然臣服於當下的時刻，或許一切會開始轉變。但直到轉變發生前，待在你現在的地方，是完全沒有問題的。你永遠都是被深深愛著、守護著的。

“Love yourself enough to not let anything outsid

“Love yourself enough to not let anything outside of you pull you off your center by simply choosing to accept each moment.”

Our love & intuition is our protection. We no long

Our love & intuition is our protection. We no longer need outdated, fear-based mechanisms to embrace the ultimate gift of life. ✨
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Photo by: Yiming
#yunnan #meilisnowmountain #sky

Happy 2-Year Breakupversary! Two years ago today,

Happy 2-Year Breakupversary! Two years ago today, everything I thought I knew was stripped away. To embrace the transformation of a 5-year romantic relationship into friendship wasn’t easy. The first two months were endless tears, anguish, lying on the floor lifelessly, not eating and losing a lot of weight, and doubting why I even existed.

Then I went back to Europe and the US to embark on my own adventure. I needed to remember how to be independent and whole again, and seek comfort in the arms of people who could hold me in my most vulnerable moments.

In December 2019, I was so ready to come back to Shanghai, take my cats and leave for good. But my cats’ paperwork would take so much longer than I imagined. Then…COVID hit.

Whatever happened next is history now. For the first time, I started to explore Shanghai for real. I found a community of friends I now call family. I fell in love with another wonderful person and realized I could open my heart again (tho we separated after 7 months).

I was so wounded and broken when I first met @narayansilva in Beijing in 2014. I didn’t know I had feelings. I lost hope in humanity. He picked up pieces of me, provided me with a safe environment to start my healing process, and modeled how to be a loving presence in other people’s lives. After 5 years of nurturing and growth, I was ready for my next stage of evolution - to practice unconditional love, to consciously heal past traumas, and to light others’ light with my own.

What I thought was the worst day of my life - July 6, 2019 - turned out to be one of the most amazing gifts I could have ever received. One that required me to take a leap of faith. To surrender. To venture into the darkest corners of my heart so I could be reborn in this life. I am forever grateful for walking this journey with you, and now with the addition of our loving community. ❤️

If you care about creating a more conscious and co

If you care about creating a more conscious and connected world like I do, Nonviolent Communication may be an important tool for us all.

My observation over the years is that many well-intentioned initiatives fail not because we don’t have the technology (or even the money), but because humans don’t know how to collaborate with each other on a conscious level. Most of us have never been taught that, or even taught the opposite way. That’s why I think it’s essential for us to integrate our inner work and outer work, so we can truly be effective change agents for Earth.

Book: “Nonviolent Communication: A Language of Life: Life-Changing Tools for Healthy Relationships”

Website: https://www.cnvc.org/

如果你也和我一樣想創造一個更有覺知的世界，那麼「非暴力溝通」或許是個非常重要的工具。

多年來，我的觀察是許多初衷很好的項目之所以會失敗，並不是因為技術不夠或沒有資金，而是因為人與人之間不知道該如何更有意識地去合作。我們多數人都沒有被教導過怎麼去做這件事，甚至是被以恰巧相反的方式去教導的。

正因如此，我認為把內心功課和外在功課整合在一起，才能更有效地去為地球成為變革者。

書籍：《非暴力溝通：愛的語言》

Things I’ve been telling myself... 1. Stay away

Things I’ve been telling myself...

1. Stay away from people or circumstances that don’t nourish you. You don’t have to be nice all the time.

2. Be on time. And request that others respect your time as well.

3. Don’t force it. If something doesn’t flow, perhaps it’s not meant to be.

4. Always check in with yourself. “Do I feel at ease now? Am I trying to run away from any feelings or thoughts?”

5. You don’t “make” change happen. The flow of life is bigger than you. Change is bound to happen, and your job is to create conditions that support it.

6. You can only receive the gifts from life when there’s space in you. Being in a liminal space is okay.

7. You don’t need to do the most “impactful” thing. Instead, do what you’re here on Earth to do, big or small. The impact of any action is not so linear or overly simplistic.

8. Stay committed to your inner work. No one else can do this for you.

9. You know what’s right for you, and what you need to do at any given moment. You just need to stop pretending that you don’t.

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